Im 20 and I have a two-year relationship with a guy who has been my good friend for seven years.
Last summer, we were apart for three months when I moved across the country for an internship.
Things were rough, I was very lonely and I had a drunken one-night stand.
I didn’t care about the person, I was just lonely. I feel so guilty.
I never told my boyfriend about my infidelity. If I didn’t tell him, he would probably never find out.
I hate that I did something that would hurt him intensely. I was a friend through his years in foster care and the incarceration of both of his parents.
I have been the shoulder to cry on and his support system.
I betrayed the most important person in my life and failed him miserably. I have seen people cause him pain, and I don’t want to be the cause of more.
I want to be with this man for the rest of my life, but I also accept that it would be entirely my fault if I told him and he left. I feel a lot of guilt and shame, but the thought of his face after I tell him makes me feel like my heart is being ripped out of my chest.
What do you think I should do?