For the last 8 weeks, I’ve been going back and forth with the fact that I’ve been feeling different about myself. I came out to my family (parents, friends and everything) at 22 and now as I’m approaching 30, I think j may have been mistaken about the fact that I was gay and am questioning my gender, more than anything. I have an attraction to men, but I’ve NEVER felt like I was one, though because I am, I never made it look like I wasn’t. I don’t cross dress. Most people don’t think I’m feminine, they are even surprised when I tell them that I’m gay. I have no problem living with the cards that I’m dealt, though I tend to believe that they might not be mine. I trust God and believe He doesn’t make mistakes. I see so many people “all of a sudden” identifying as transgender and i loathe that title. I’ve felt like this since forever and like I said for the last 8 weeks or so it’s been so public and normalized I feel like someone who felt like me went to the extreme and now we’re all expected to. Most of the men I date, I don’t want. I dated women in high school and part of college and they were okay, I’m just glad I didn’t make a baby. I guess I’m saying I don’t really know what I am, what to identify as or who I will be in the future, but I’m wondering if society is just expecting me to identify as transgender because I don’t know or if I should just stick with gay because I’ve got some questions. I would’ve open to trying women again, but don’t even know how to bottle all of this up. Help me out , If you’ve got something for me to start with
ShakeUp Letter 9/14: I thought I was gay, but am I Trans?
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